let the GOOD times roll! Well folks its almost that time! That time when the clock strikes 12 Midnight, when New Beginnings will..uh….. Begin!:) Hopefully your old horrible ways will change for the better, you’ll become less slut like… and you’ll for once can sleep restfully without some nasty boy’s dingaling in your mouth….You’ll put down the ciggs for about 1 month… ok a month in a half TOPS, and decide that you want to live a long healthy life!! full of joy and happiness…….Then your bubble will pop and reality will Bit@h slap you and you’ll soon start to realize that dying a horrid death from lung cancer just might not be as bad as it looks… But HEY at least you’ll go out with a bang! *cough*…..All of the Alcoholics….(Hey KISS MY YELLOW,,,don’t be pointin at me!.. I can’t help it I’m a recreational drinker!…But anyway.. maybe just MAYBE all of the ALCHYS will down grade to something less “potent”..like say… beer.. (What!? Beer aint LIQUAR! Its just BEER! all by itself!.. AND its healther too!:) I heard beer was good for a lot of things.. like Period cramps, I think the heart.. Chicken… and EVEN FISH!..they evn have freakin NUTS made outta beer! How inventive is that!.. The Chunky Monkeys will catch on to what the skinny models are doing, and JUST STOP EATING…. as a whole.. .. cmon.. after a couple days.. you won’t even feel hungry! (Ok.. let me pause to say *WARNING*.. most of everything KEANDRA says..(thats me by the way) is only intented for JOKING purposes… THIS IS ONE OF THOSE TIMES……..& DOn’t be tryna sue me saying that I told your dumbass to stop eating!..Thats on you fatty, NOT ME!…) ok i’m back.. SO! a lot women might decide to eat a million “black eyed peas” hoping for a GOOD, Loyal man! ! Eat all them shyts if you want 2 ladies! You will always be manless until its truly your time to be with your dream honey….Its TRUE cuz I ate one dayum pea(and I absolutly HATE peas..) I ate a pea right b4 2008 thinking I was going to get me a GOOD, Loyal man! Letting my moms talking me into eating that NASTY shit!…. …and what do ya know! BAM! I got a man! Hell if all I had to do was eat a freakin pea to get a man.. I would have BEEN did it!..but See I think the “pea master” was teasing me, making me belive I actually had a good, solid man, or at least thats what I had to keep telling myself………. but anywho.. WHERES the Boob now?? Guess he took a trip somewheres,.*shrugs shoulders* (you know thats what some moms tell their lil ones when they ask where their no good daddies are….”Oh honey.. daddys taking a trip”…)…WELL now I’m dayum manless! and that dayum PEA didn’t do shyt but give me irritated BOWELS!…… maybe I should have ate 2…?………………… This yr, before the clock strikes 12, I’m just going to sit back and reflect on this whole yr…every moment..EVERY DAYUM MOMENT!, and I will take many many MANY shots of something HIGHLY intoxicating, and something quite “herbish” so I could then forget the 09, and ask God for forgiveness for the future sinful things I will take part in…… But as for you folks.. Enjoy your new yrs eve!.. Have funn, Don’t waste your time or energy mad/sad over something/someone.. just let whatever it is be like water off a duck’s back.. let it go, let it slide from your thoughts ever so easily… Thank God that you made it into yet another year! and I pray that 2010 for you and I be one of the best yrs yet!.! LET THE GOOD TIMES ROLL FAM! and I’ll see you in 2010! PEACE! LOVE,AND YELLOOOW!!!

YEP, SO ITS CHRISTMAS EVE.. AND I’M AT WORK….. THIS BLOWS ALL TYPES OF DONKEY DICK.. I’m not even in the mood anyways. And thats a BIG shocker to me. Usually I’ll be like any other lil kiddy, ooooin and ahhhin over the lights,trying to catch a peak at all the presents I was getting up underneath the tree.. eggnog,My MOTOWN christmas music… all that jazz.. BUT I just can’t seem to get into the whole spirit of it.. I kinda Just wish xmas would just hurry up and pass…. No need for fake smiles and hugs.. Eff all that.. just leave me alone to myself, in my own little world..(Wow I sound like I’m about to kill myself..smh) I’m just sayin…. Maybe santa will work some of his holiday magic to put a smile on my face.. that would be kinda wonderful I guess.. Maybe a stiff drink is all I need… maybe a couple actually.. yea, at least my feelings of pure sadness will numb itself for awhile.. This is really starting to sound depressing..(even to me).. But hey, every Lioness has her day.. I’ll bounce back sooner or later………… Well, I feel the Holiday Shit coming on,(Thats the most excitement I’ll prob have all dayum day),,, Later fam.. and Still Happy Holidays to you..

AHH PUT A STOCKING IN IT!

peace, love, and yelloww.

let me just say that I have been a loyal customer of TMOBILE since 2005, and I’ve stuck by them, thru thick and thin. Ive even had your back.. talked up your name..Hell recruited my OWN FAM..(not because there was a 25 dollar credit per PERSON).. nooooo it was because I truly felt that Tmobile really DID *stick together* with their customers………………………………………… FUCK THAT!.. TMOBILE you suck DIRTY DICKS! You’re probably at home chillin with your VERIZON phones just TALKING it up! Texting one letter at a time to your friends JUST because! and here I am feinin like an OCD CRACKHEAD pickin up my phone every 10secs checkin to see if I got a TEXT! .. Do you know how bad I want to text right now?? DO YOU!.. just to feel and hear the vibrating sound of a text message sending is puree bliss! TMOBILE you have ROYALLY EFFED up this time! You better be HAPPY I’m late on my bill or else One of you Douche Bags was GOING to pay!(literally).. And the WORSE thing is that EVEN customer care isnt even pickin up! …. THE AUDACITY! .. Just think, say when I get off work, and its late as hell, and I have to shit something SERIOUS… I get out the car..LOCK my dayum keys in the car.. .. so I whip out my handy dandy cell phone and I “attempt” to call someone to let me in…..AND I KEEP GETTING A BUSY SIGNAL! ALL BECAUSE OF TMOBILE! so NOW.. I’m breathing hard, and sweating trying to keep my SHIT inside my butt hole, AND its freezing outside! ALL BECAUSE Tmobile wanted to eff with my network line! So I end up shitting outside SMACK infront of my door on the grass.. AND Finally when someone decides to come to the door from me beating on the door and yelling so the whole neighborhood could hear me… My mom Notices my Horse Turds on her lawn and “Attempts” To make me clean it up… um yea right.. so She inturns trys to rebuke demons out of me on my way to the bathroom to finish what I started….. SO TMOBILE You see what you could have caused!! ALL the TROUBLE!? and its NOT like I can just SWITCH providers.. because you NUMBNUTS would stick a fat Cancellation bill on me Forcing me to stay!…. … Tmobile says they “stick together”…. hmph! Well I know where they Can Stick IT on my Behalf!….. Good Grief!

WTF EVER!

peace, love, and yelllllow….

AGGRAVATED

JUST SPILL IT OUT ALREADY!

SOMETIMES HATED

FOR THE THINGS I’VE STATED..

OR LACK THERE OF.

FEELINGS OF ALWAYS BEING JUDGED

BECAUSE OF MY NONCHALANT SILENCE

AND SHOULDER SHRUGS.

ITS NEVER INTENTIONAL, MOST TIMES I AGREE

ITS CONSENSUAL

HOW OTHERS VIEW ME.

I FEEL LIKE A FUCKED UP PUPPY WHO HAS JUST BEEN NEUTERED…

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK HAS HAPPENED TO ME.

I’VE NEVER BEEN TRULY ABLE TO BOUNCE BACK..

OBVIOUSLY.

SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE ALL HOPE IS GONE FROM ME..

LIKE MY SOUL IS EMPTY.

LIKE EVERYTHING THAT IS EXPECTED FROM ME

I SEEM TO FUCK UP TREMENDOUSLY..

THERE HAS TO BE A WAY OUT OF THIS MAZE,

TIME TO REACH A NEW PHASE

IN MY LIFE.

OUR LIFE..

BECAUSE NOW I’M A WIFE..

NEW ISSUES TO FIGHT

WHY BE DEPRESSED WHEN I’M SO BLESSED.

PEOPLE FAIL TO REALIZE I’M ONLY HUMAN, JUST LIKE THE REST.

WHY CAN’T MY LIFE BE SIMPLE..

LIKE DUCKS AT A POND EATING BREAD..

NO WORRIES IN THE WORLD,

NOT A THOUGHT IN THEIR HEADS..

BUT JUST TO EAT THE FUCKIN BREAD!

LIFE SEEMS SO COMPLICATED,

DISORIENTED,

IF WHITE PEOPLE HATE BLACK PEOPLE SO MUCH

THEN WHY DID I JUST SEE EM HOLDING HANDS WITH A MIXED BABY,

MAYBE

JUST MAYBE, THEIR HATRED DON’T RUN THAT DEEP

AND ALL THE MEMORIES OF MY ANCESTORS BEING BEAT

WILL SLEEP.

I WEEP

AT TIMES BECAUSE I’M TIRED

TIRED OF STRUGGLING

JUGGLING life

its dayum near sickening.

but i’m going through it for a reason.

I have to keep telling my heart that

because at times it don’t want to listen.

But it will

and one day I will

start to feel  whole again

my soul will mend

my face will permanently wear a grin

and life as I knew it, will one day begin.

Until then.I’ll be taking a vacation

Get at me if you need a lil temptation

a certain sensation

a night of consummation

penetration

until we get to that destination

of pure ejaculation..

We’re in a sticky situation… Literally

I bet you just loved how this turned sexually

all suddenly..

but thats just how I am.

Already preppin you for your oral exam.

Because if you don’t pass, then you can’t play

and you know you’re my favorite team player..

number 46 all day.

Ha! Ok let me quit

let me chill out a bit..

So I guess i’ve just rambled about a mixture of life and dick

lol I guess I’m just twisted

a lil sick..

oh well, you dont like it..

Upper right hand corner of your screen…

click it..

*sighs* Well Its all about sacrifice folks.. smh.. hell, what a sacrifice I’m making. In less than 24 hours, I will be taking my Baby back.. Its for the best right now. I’ve had some great times in my car, and half the time I wasn’t even driving it so… BUT at least I can say I had a BMW actually in my possession.. Not a lot of 22 yr olds can say that. HELL, not a lot of 40 yr olds can say that. When it all comes down to it, The car is just materialist, and in about 2 or 3 yrs, I’ll be able to buy me an even nicer ride… because YES, I will have it like that:) bbbbut I think I’m going to shy away from the Bmws from now on. Yea they’re a Beauty to look at, but them suckers will drain the mess outta your wallet! No doubt!.. And I’m not having it anymore. . So farewell my friend.. its been real… peace fam..

:( bye

P.s. *WARNING* NEVER buy a car from CARMAX! they’re complete idiots.. if I had the chance… (and could get away with it),, I would SO run over EVERYONE there with my car that I’m bringing back… SMH.. So thank you CARMAX! for NOT helping me CARMAX! you’re selfish RETARDS CARMAX! and if anyone tries to take me to court about “defamation”… you won’t get very far because EVERYTHING thing I’m saying is TRUE you freakin NUMBNUTS!…yea, if you want your car to  start falling apart soon as you drive off the lot.. well CARMAX just might be the place for you:)…Happy driving folks!

peace, love, and yelllllllllllllow:/

My lil butter ball! AHHHH SHES HEREEEEEEEEEE!!:) My God daughter came into the world on December 8th, 2009. 7 pounds, 13 ounces, and 19 inches… Whew! What a biggum! But she is so adorable!.. I want to squeeze her big, fat, juicy, cheeks, and love on her always! Didn’t you just HATE when you were little and the old farts in your fam always felt the need to squeeze your cheeks! I use to think in my head..”if only your fingers were an inch more closer to my mouth.. I’d bite the hell outta YOU!.. that’ll teach you to keep your nasty, filthy, wrinkly hands off of MY FACE!”…. But of course I just smiled and went on about my way.. Babies are one of God’s greatest gifts he could give to a person. Seeing a newborn baby is so surreal, like its like looking at a live cabbage patch kid doll. That’s how I felt when I went to go see my lil “AK” (Abigael Karen).. I was so afraid to hold her for some reason, and I think I’m like that with all newborns.. you know that anxiety about “what if I drop him/her.. what if I hold her too tight? What if what if what if… I hope whenever I do decide to pop somebody outta my coochie coo, I’ll be more than ready, and the anxieties will subside…. In due time tho.. As for now.. AK will be my ace! my lil buddy.. my heart:).. I think I’m already attached!.. and if ANYONE tries to bring harm to her, just know that I will Manually CUT off their private parts with with an eye brow archer….:) BUT anywho.. I just decided to dedicate this blog to my AK.. LOVE YOU! and I’ll see you soon! Peace, love, and yelllllllow

At that moment in time.. Life felt beautiful, I felt beautiful.. Not a care in the world.. All jazzed up ready to step out into the world for everyone to see!.. AT times like that, I sometimes wish I can freeze em. Just for a little while. Time is that irreversible moment that you can never get back, once its gone, its gone forever. You can try to relive it, but it will never be the same. Time can be quite tricky too, It goes by silently without you even realizing it, and before you know it, you’re OLD and wrinkle, with bags up underneath your eyes.. ewww what a sight to see.. I hope I’ll be radiant and glowing by the time I’m old as dirt.. But anywho…TIME.. How does one know when they’re truly ready to move on with time? When to finally get up outta that dungeon and proceed with life again.. When does one FINALLY see the light?.. In “due time” I always say. It takes some a tad bit longer to realize that time has left them behind. One true fact about time is that its going to continue no matter what. Time has no favorites, it just has one job to do, and does it to a “T” no questions asked!… IT’s like when you’re at work and theres ALWAYS that one coworker who does EVERY freakin thing right! He loves his/her job and he/she loves doing it no matter what!.. and it kinda messes up your groove because it makes you look like a lazy ass in the PROCESS! Every time you go to work, you think of some crazy scheme to make their day like HELL! Ok that was maybe a lil too far, but you get my point.. It doesn’t take the work of my mother and a few white people to make me believe something is going to work for me… ALL I need is TIME.. thats it.. and during that time, things will reveal itself to me, if a certain decision needs to be made in my life, Time has a way of speeding up my final say so. SO it’s all about TIME people.. Spend it “wisely.” and most definitely DON”T take it for granted… .. Peace, love, and yelllllllllow fam!

YEP! I feel just like that big headed baby!.. The things people do for money I tell you..smh.. I’ve just worked a 16hour shift, and I’m BACK at work!.. I literally feel like I’m about to pass out and throw up at the same time! That will be quite interesting to see I must admit..and quite disgusting too.. Picture me. Passed out in a puddle of throw up.:/ Isnt that just lovely:).. And It doesnt help that Its FREEZING out side!… I need a big fluffy bed, and a big fluffy pillow, so I can dream about nice fluffy things..*drools on laptop*.. I’m praying that this liquid crack in a bottle aka energy drink, starts to work pretty soon…. Lord knows, today will be one of my lazy days.. One of them days where I’m just going to sit and stare at the wall… Like for real, one eye is on my computer screen and the other one is just chillin staring at the wall.. and NO I’m not cock eyed! lol I’m just gifted like that.. One more day, at work and then I’m free!!!! for 2 days lol.. But other than that….. ok well I was going to throw something positive in there, BUT.. nope, today just sucks monkey nuts period.. oh well.. Well I hope all of you are having a better day than I am.. Hopefully I’ll perk up after awhile.. Until then.. I’m out!

I need a bed!

Peace, love, and yellowwwww:/

Yep Fam, you read right! I’ve made my decision, and in a little over a month, I’m outta here..Can’t believe I’m saying this, but I’m going to miss this city.. just a tad.. ok ok, maybe a little bit more than that.. I’m leaving behind a lot of people I hold dear.. Many great memories, and many not so great ones.. hey they’re ALL apart of life..Its time for some new memories. I’m excited about being in a new surrounding, with different people. Better Opportunities, and more exciting things to keep me busy! I know its going to take some time trying to adapt, but once I do, I’m hoping I’m there for awhile.. I’m soooo tired of moving, so stability is what I’ve been praying for, and I’m hoping this is IT! I’ll be closer to the beach! And for those that know me..know I just LOVEEE the water.. its so calming and relaxing… And I’ll be able to catch my basketball games in person! yep, thats going to be a BLAST!… Everyone Hates change.. well I can’t say that, because some welcome change, depending on the type of change… Well this will be a drastic, big change for me.. but I feel its the right thing to do at this moment in my life… and hey, if I dont dig it too well, well maybe Huntsville will see my pretty little face again one day… who knows.. But in the mean time.. ITS PACKING TIME!.. but of course fam, you know I won’t forget about you! I’m taking you with me!:) So you’ll be around for all of my ups, and downs, and adventures, and EVERYTHINg!.. so dont worry, I won’t leave you out!.. I’ll be getting with you every couple of days to keep you informed on this moving process.. LETS GET IT!.. Nothing but greatness! here I come world!!!!

get a MOVE ON!

Ight so, I’ve been praying long and hard! Hard and LOng, about some things that are might about to transpire in the next couple of months. Good ole Alabama might just be a thing in the past for me. I got a proposition out of state from a family member, and I just might take it.. Idk yet. The only reason I’m still here is my mother.. I have a good job, but if I’m getting something better with more opportunities then why not huh?.. Theres nothing here for me anymore, why subject myself to this place full of memories I’m trying to forget?.. You know, sometimes you just have to learn how to let go completely and branch out of your familiar surroundings.. yea it may be scary at times, but you;ll never know whats out there until you just go!.. Some people need a bigger push than others.. But whatevers out there, I just want to be happy, and living a good life!..I find myself more and more trying to do things different, trying to be better than ever, trying to be spontaneous.. I guess thats what divorce and separation will do to a woman. I’m planning a cruise for my birthday to the Bahamas.. I needed to do something for myself, since I’ve been working to get caught up non stop and I’m just about there, so this trip will be a breath of fresh air!.. I think everyone should take at least one or two trips a year, just to get away from the hustle bustle of life.. I can see me now.. on an Island, walking on warm sand, letting the water from the waves brush up against my naked toesies:).. admiring the sunset with a Bahama mama in my hand..(Yall know I had to be sippin on something lol).. and then I’d go back to my ocean view suite, slip into a nice sun dress, with heels and make up, and I’m out the door to go have a nice dinner, and maybe catch a dance or two:).. And thats just the beginning! I sure have a vivid imagination I tell you.. but doesnt that just sound wonderful so far?.. it does to me:).. and I CAN”T WAIT! Any who.. Let me get my head out of this cloud lol.. getting back to work now.. well kind of..*wink*.. Later fam..! Peace love and Yelloooooooow

UH.. WHICH WAY DO I GO??