ARE YOU READY …PT2

What do you get when you loose all hope for happiness
you find yourself alone drowning your sorrows and sadness.
You loose the fight to fight for what you really want
Going on day by day hoping
yet not even looking
most of the times not even wanting
to find whats there to find.
You say today is the day to leave old feelings behind
and moving on to someone else in mind,
but this time
praying it will last this time you put your heart on the line.
Your heart being broken
getting disappointed
almost comes second nature sometimes.
Wishing God would send someone to interrupt my future
bringing happy times.
Someone I can make my king and call him mine.
Taking a risk
Going with the flow
because one just may never know,
whats for them.
Ok, so what do you get when you say fuck it!
Going with your heart and stop trying to fake it.
Giving in to the feelings of bliss.
I found you
I found love
I found everything I was praying for from up above.
Or shall I say you found me.
You waited for me when I just couldn’t see,
that you were the one for me.
I know bad times will come
but i pray that we’ll overcome.
We’ll take it one day at a time
and our hearts will heal within time.
The course of our lives is just beginning
for you to be my man
and you
your lady,
I love you baby
ARE YOU READY? (JAN 2008)

Was he really ready?

for me to be his everything

my queen to his king?

Was he ready for all of me

the good, the bad, the ugly?

Its frustrating because hes by husband, the person I sad  “I DO” to

But now divorce is possibly knocking on my door , and nothing is left to do

but wait,

cant concentrate,

my life is changing at such a fast rate..

But God, Ive tried to be the  good wife to him

but my efforts go unnoticed to him.

Men approaching me left and right trying to make me stray

Its hard because I dont even know if  HE’S   going to stay..

Im trying to fight a battle thats not even mine to fight..

Maybe he wanted to leave all along

just  dragging  me along..

He probably doesn’t believe he had me at hello

4 yrs a go

From the moment I heard his voice

I heard angelic angels..

But I was bitter

from a previous relationship that left me off centered..

I fought from day one to never let another guy hurt me

to not even let a guy near me..

But he seemed to change me

and I gave him a chance

and he asked to marry me..

Never thought I would  be the one any guy chose.

AND now, 17 days shy of a year anniversary he is left to choose

..Its crazy how I always thought of myself as the encouraging , supporting, type

but some how in his eyes I have become the negative, no good type.

He claims that hes put me before his life, his goals, his ambitions,

when not once had I told him to quit anything

matter of fact I was the one that told him he could do anything..

that he put his mind up to..

I was there encouraging, and lifting him up when he was trying out for football,

exercising with him,

speaking positive.

But  I guess he forgot.

I was there with him when he couldnt find a job,

pregnant and all.

I was the one to comfort him, and told him don’t give up.

When he got a job,

HE quit the job,

but I supported him through it all!

Trusting that he was making a good decision .

But I guess he forgot.

When NO ONE else believed in him about his current business,

I was THERE! picking up his head,

making video’s with him instead

of doing other things.

Listening to all his ideas, and plans.

NOT once did I tell him to put me in front of his dreams..

But I was there behind the scene

but he screams im the reason for it

I guess he just forgot.

And I guess Im just suppose to sit here and take that

try my hardest to pick up the slack

a slack that maybe just dont want to be picked up..

Just to be thrown back..

WAS HE REALLY READY?

MAybe HE WAS,

AND MAYBE HE REALLY WASNT

BUT THE FACT IS STILL WE ARE IN A COVENANT..

TO BE OR NOT TO BE, IS THE QUESTION..

DONT REALLY HAVE TO WAIT ON HIM TO GIVE ME AN ANSWER

GOD SPEAKS TO ME ON THE REGULAR

AND HE KNOWS THE TRUE ANSWER TO MY FUTURE..