I can’t believe it’s been a full 8 months since I’ve graced you with my my presence..I’ve missed you sooooo much you just don’t know.. and A LOT has happened since then, that I dont think one blog entry would cover the vast majority of everything that has, and STILL IS going down in my life. SO I’ll just give you a quick recap.. Since MAY 2010, (wow.. its just so much that has transpired, I do not know where to begin… Well, for those who have kept up with my marital drama thus far, know that I’ve FINALLY made the decision to call it quits! Im SO done, and as much as I would like to go into every single detail as to why this is so, I won’t.. It’ll just piss me off ALL over again., and I’m not even trying to put myself through those types of feelings again.. Going through a divorce no matter what the decision was prior to getting a divorce was, it’s still a difficult, heart fucking process to deal with…Point blank, the ish hurts.. more than anyone can even fathom, and even though I’m always thought to be the “strong” type, this whole year I’ve seen myself at my lowest, and I hated it. I still have my moments, but I think I’m beginning to accept my reality, and the thought of “moving” on is looking REALLY good.. I still have a couple kinks and naps to comb out, but I’m looking forward to whats to come.. I’ve never been so in tune to what I truly wanted in SUCH a long time, its scary to actually know that maaaaybe I can really achieve it… no scratch that.. I CAN achieve it…But this time.. it’s with a lil twist *winks* 
Yea, I know I’m ALWAYS full of surprises.. hell this one may throw a LOT of people for a loop, but I feel this is who I am, and I’ve been fighting (kinda still is) for a verrrrrrrrr*cough* eeeeeeerrrry long time.. .and I’m sorry in advance for some people who I might hurt in this process, but I have to start living my life for ME, and many people may not accept my lifestyle choices, but only GOD can judge me.. The heart can’t help who or what it loves.. it just LOVES without hesitation, or worry… .. The best is yet to come, and I hope you’ll still be here with me for the ride…. until then my cy-ber fam….
nu nu
PEACE, LOVEEEEE and YELLLLLLLLOW:)
