Hello blog family.. I know you’ve missed me. I feel if no one else would listen to me, then you all would. Its funny sometimes when you find people you’ve spoken to via online know you and treat you better than those who are physically around. Most people take things like that for granted. But I am appreciative for a place where I can come sort out all of my feelings and thoughts and not be judged or criticized about them. I can honestly say that I am more welcomed in the cy-ber world more so than in the physical one. But any who, on to some serious blogging action.. It has been quite the day, despite a minor emotional set back, I’m alright. God is still working in my life and he is showing me new things everyday. I’m at work and I just came back from a little walk, and i began to sing one of my favorite songs, and then the wind started blowing, and the trees started whistling, and all of a sudden I felt a sudden peace within my soul.. Its like God himself was wrapping his arms around me and whispering in my ear that he sees my pain and my struggles, and he understands. I’m starting to realize that people will degrade you, and say awful things about you, no matter what, and sometimes, its those who are close to you. It hurts when you can’t confide in those people, because of their negativity or lack of consideration. Its also very humorous to me that those SAME people who has done me wrong or has said hurtful things to me, ALWAYS end up needing me. Let it be via ear, or just for advice, or just for friendship. I hate it when people feel like they’ve got “it” all figured out, and feel like the only way to reach the top is to knock others down just to gain another notch on the totem pole. Well, life doesn’t operate like that. You’ll find yourself stuck in that same spot because no one is willing to help you. And I’m not going to say that just because some people like to pull me down, doesnt mean that I will pull my hand away from another person who needs it. God will handle my light weight, I just have to learn to keep doing right. I’m no longer afraid of “Lonely.” The type of person that I am, I don’t think I’ll be lonely anyway, because for some reason people are drawn to me, idk, maybe its just the God in me.. People don’t make or break me, only if I allow them to. I strongly believe that God is beginning to take me to higher places in my life, no matter who stays or make a final exit out of my life.. The ball wont stop rolling just because one or two people decide to leave the game ya dig.. There will always be others that will step up to the plate and score. Most people that have learned to shut out the ones that matter the most, end up living a cold, miserable life, and I refuse to be one of those people.. I’m done being miserable and un happy. I’ma start living for me and only me, because when you start living for other people, they’d soon stab you in the back once they’ve got up enough spunk to do so.. But like I always say, you can’t do right mixed up with wrong and expect to get a clean result… Life never cease to amaze me, and everyday I learn just a little bit more about myself and people. . But in the end, everything that happens is for a reason, and all apart of HIS master plan.. so Live, Laugh, and Love.. And i’m outtie
HMMM 